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I lost myself in you – By Me, Erica


I lost myself in a person once. everyone says that though, right?
Every girl talks about this crazy love they had where they were
completely “lost” and it felt amazing and vital,
but it was short, like a flickering flame.


I truly lost myself in you.


I forgot that I love to sing, and I forgot what it felt like to look
in the mirror and like what I see. I forgot that Im intelligent. That I had important things people wanted to listen to. I forgot how hard I had fought to become who I am. I forgot that this type of happiness existed. I forgot what consistency felt like or how sometimes I prefer to stay in on a Friday night and watch Netflix.


And the most devastating of all, I forgot how to love myself unless it was coming from you. I loved you so much it hurt - it psychically caused me pain. We would mask all the bad with intoxicating sex, this is why put up with the relationship long after it was dead, but I was tired of pretending it didn’t hurt when it did.


You’ll never believe that you can be that person in an abusive and draining relationship. You truly don’t understand why people are
Staring at you with disbelief, and you certainly don’t believe when they say your better than him. I made up more excuses for you than I
ever did myself and I believed every single one of them.


That is not love.
Love is not forgiving the lies you told over and over again.
Love is not taking someone for granted.  Love is not holding back from things you want to do because it isn’t worth the fight. Love doesn’t make you the worst version of yourself. Love is not being absolutely terrified that the floor could fall through any
second and everything could burst into flames. Love is not
being tangled, and oh we were so tangled.


There’s a dark comfort in this type of love - feeling needed.
I use to think that it was beautiful the way you showed
your fear of losing me.  But really you just wanted to control me. You tested me, you tested me everyday,
to see if I was good enough, to see if I loved you
enough, if I was worthy, if I would do anything for you.
However, sometimes you can give a person everything
and its still not enough to fill the hole they have inside.


So now everyday is spent reversing the damage.
There is a strangeness in a healthy relationship.
The idea is somewhat uncomfortable. When your significant other picks up the phone, or watches
you pick up the phone, and no one is suspicious,
speculating, or angry.  Being surprised when I
realize I believe the statement, ” You’re the girl for me”,
because he shows it.  To know your plans won’t fall through.
That your not walking on glass, but solid ground.


Don’t get me wrong there are moments of regression.
Mending myself hasn’t and still isn’t easy, but can’t wait
to explore and try exciting and nerve-wracking things
with someone; not because I’m afraid their going to
leave, but because I know they’ll have my back
either way.


Inspired by an article on thought catalog altered by me to fit my life

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rippedbackpocket:

Girls in Gant Rugger
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Girls in Gant Rugger
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Girls in Gant Rugger
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Girls in Gant Rugger
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Girls in Gant Rugger
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Girls in Gant Rugger
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Girls in Gant Rugger
rippedbackpocket:

Girls in Gant Rugger
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johnnysevenfive:

bushdog:

(via GUYATONE SG-M02 1960s)

Goodness.

Extended trem blowing my mind.
johnnysevenfive:

bushdog:

(via GUYATONE SG-M02 1960s)

Goodness.

Extended trem blowing my mind.
johnnysevenfive:

bushdog:

(via GUYATONE SG-M02 1960s)

Goodness.

Extended trem blowing my mind.
johnnysevenfive:

bushdog:

(via GUYATONE SG-M02 1960s)

Goodness.

Extended trem blowing my mind.
johnnysevenfive:

bushdog:

(via GUYATONE SG-M02 1960s)

Goodness.

Extended trem blowing my mind.
johnnysevenfive:

bushdog:

(via GUYATONE SG-M02 1960s)

Goodness.

Extended trem blowing my mind.
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nickelsonwooster:

Printing.
youmightfindyourself:

Before the advent of photography, Japanese fishermen created a novel technique for documenting their catch. Gyotaku is a form of printing that creates accurate renditions through a relief printing process. Rubbing sumi ink onto the body of a fish, and then gently pressing rice paper onto it and peeling it away will net an impression of the fish—distinct enough to note the shape and size of the species as well as the subtle patterns and textures of scales, fins, and gills. 
Dating back to the 1800s, original gyotaku prints were minimal in their appearance—made only in black ink without embellishment of texture, color, or added elements. The emphasis of these early prints was to prove the size and species of the fisherman’s “trophy fish” and to record this permanently. It was not until later when gyotaku became an art form that composition and color were considered.
Gyotaku is still widely used today in Japan and other coastal communities. Often in restaurant signage, this technique allows chefs to advertise their seafood specials with immediacy and honesty. Traditionally, the fish is printed with non-toxic ink allowing it to be cleaned and prepared as a meal after the printing process has been completed. The natural precision of gyotaku offers a pure form of graphic clarity—its simplicity demonstrates detached documentation yet highlights the personal achievement of the proud fisherman.
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In fact a mature person does not fall in love, he rises in love. The word ’fall’ is not right. Only immature people fall; they stumble and fall down in love. Somehow they were managing and standing. They cannot manage and they cannot stand – they find a woman and they are gone, they find a man and they are gone. They were always ready to fall on the ground and to creep. They don’t have the backbone, the spine; they don’t have that integrity to stand alone.

A mature person has the integrity to be alone. And when a mature person gives love, he gives without any strings attached to it: he simply gives. And when a mature person gives love, he feels grateful that you have accepted his love, not vice versa. He does not expect you to be thankful for it – no, not at all, he does not even need your thanks. He thanks you for accepting his love. And when two mature persons are in love, one of the greatest paradoxes of life happens, one of the most beautiful phenomena: they are together and yet tremendously alone; they are together so much so that they are almost one. But their oneness does not destroy their individuality, in fact, it enhances it: they become more individual.


Two mature persons in love help each other to become more free. There is no politics involved, no diplomacy, no effort to dominate. How can you dominate the person you love? Just think over it. Domination is a sort of hatred, anger, enmity. How can you think of dominating a person you love? You would love to see the person totally free, independent; you will give him more individuality. That’s why I call it the greatest paradox: they are together so much so that they are almost one, but still in that oneness they are individuals. Their individualities are not effaced – they have become more enhanced. The other has enriched them as far as their freedom is concerned.


Immature people falling in love destroy each other’s freedom, create a bondage, make a prison. Mature persons in love help each other to be free; they help each other to destroy all sorts of bondages. And when love flows with freedom there is beauty. When love flows with dependence there is ugliness.

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Osho (via youbroketheinternet)
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stxxz:

by Hirashima
stxxz:

by Hirashima
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mugenstyle:

Sun bathing
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